昨晚问darling: 做么你没有问我今天考试考得怎样？
他说：因为问太多次问到闷了，考太多次了，一个月里面都不懂考几次。
然后就随口应酬了一下，考得怎样？
。。。。（我无话可说）
哇噻，我也被这些考试逼得半死了！你难道就不能关心一下吗？
（其实他有啦，只是不够多吧了，再加上不够明显，而我也是个很贪心的人，哈哈！）
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
The weirdest thing had happened ...
It is spring now, but Cardiff was snowing few minutes ago.
What happened to the world now?
It is spring now, but Cardiff was snowing few minutes ago.
What happened to the world now?
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Stress - Stress - Stress
What will you do when you are really stressed?
Eat? Sleep? Work even harder? Sing? (I can't think of any other things else)
I am really stress now.
Law Test, PADC test, Formulation Science Test 1, PADC re-sit, Formulation Science Test 2, and Pharmacology test. Lot and lot of works waiting to be done. Thursday I'll be having my Formulation test 1 yet I know nothing for the test until now. Have been flipping through the notes, lab manual, British Pharmacopoeia, Pharmaceutical Codex, but still can't get any hint of doing it. Who can help me?
Sometimes I really feel like giving up PHARMACY already, I am only in the second year but I can't stand the stress anymore, I have no idea how am I going to survive in my third year next year. I am telling myself everyday, that I can do it, but I doubt it.
LEE LAY MING, you need to work smarter, YOU CAN DO IT.!
and yes, I CAN DO IT, for everyone who loves me.
What will you do when you are really stressed?
Eat? Sleep? Work even harder? Sing? (I can't think of any other things else)
I am really stress now.
Law Test, PADC test, Formulation Science Test 1, PADC re-sit, Formulation Science Test 2, and Pharmacology test. Lot and lot of works waiting to be done. Thursday I'll be having my Formulation test 1 yet I know nothing for the test until now. Have been flipping through the notes, lab manual, British Pharmacopoeia, Pharmaceutical Codex, but still can't get any hint of doing it. Who can help me?
Sometimes I really feel like giving up PHARMACY already, I am only in the second year but I can't stand the stress anymore, I have no idea how am I going to survive in my third year next year. I am telling myself everyday, that I can do it, but I doubt it.
LEE LAY MING, you need to work smarter, YOU CAN DO IT.!
and yes, I CAN DO IT, for everyone who loves me.
Monday, March 12, 2007
PADC stands for Presciption and Dispensing Counseling.
It is an exercise of doing a dispensing according to the prescription coming from doctor, dentist, optometrist, nurse, midwife, pharmacist. Basically as a pharmacist student, we need to check the legality of the prescription, clinical check (eg is the dose correct for the patient, is there any contra-indication between the two drugs, is the product legal to dispense etc), fill in all the extra sheets, such as POM Entry, Controlled Drug Register, Extemporaneous Dispensing Sheet. Life as a pharmacist student is never easy (but it is not that tedious when came to real life, as least computer will do most of the checking).
As usual, Cardiff University will torture you in whatever ways they like. For this test, they are killing us by asking us to finish 7 prescriptions in 2.5 hours (20 mins for each prescription), and there are so many things to check in a single prescription. The most unfair thing is, for other university, they are doing only 6 prescriptions in THREE HOURS. A prescription less than Cardiff Uni but with longer time duration. Really don't understand why are they setting such a short duration for us to finish so many prescriptions, as in we need to do that in real life as well. In real world, patient will just pop in to the pharmacist with a prescription and wait for the pharmacy to dispense their medication, some of them even drop by their prescription and collect it at the next day. So what's the point of hurrying within that 2.5 hours?
Today I was screwed up with the prescriptions given. I used about 45 mins to do the first question, and I started to get panic after that. The prescriptions were just way too tricky, I was confused most of the time. It wasn't that bad during the previous exercises and the mock test but when came to the test this morning, they came out with all hell lot of tricky questions to fail their students. I did lot of careless mistakes due to lack of time, for instant forgot to give child-resistance cap, forgot about the syringe, labeling mistake etc. Arghhh mood swing right after the exam, mood-less for the rest of the day.
Just few minute ago, my friend asked, have you checked on your PADC test mark? I was like; gosh why are they releasing the result so soon? I still want to enjoy my life. As expected, I failed, don't worry I am not that SAD at least for now, Cardiff Uni had trained me to get used to all the re-sit thingy. They failed most of the students in every test. For this PADC, only 32 students passed out of 110 students, not big deal for not passing this :p There is a feedback session tomorrow to check on what mistake had we made then I think I can do better in the coming re-sit. Wish me luck.
It is an exercise of doing a dispensing according to the prescription coming from doctor, dentist, optometrist, nurse, midwife, pharmacist. Basically as a pharmacist student, we need to check the legality of the prescription, clinical check (eg is the dose correct for the patient, is there any contra-indication between the two drugs, is the product legal to dispense etc), fill in all the extra sheets, such as POM Entry, Controlled Drug Register, Extemporaneous Dispensing Sheet. Life as a pharmacist student is never easy (but it is not that tedious when came to real life, as least computer will do most of the checking).
As usual, Cardiff University will torture you in whatever ways they like. For this test, they are killing us by asking us to finish 7 prescriptions in 2.5 hours (20 mins for each prescription), and there are so many things to check in a single prescription. The most unfair thing is, for other university, they are doing only 6 prescriptions in THREE HOURS. A prescription less than Cardiff Uni but with longer time duration. Really don't understand why are they setting such a short duration for us to finish so many prescriptions, as in we need to do that in real life as well. In real world, patient will just pop in to the pharmacist with a prescription and wait for the pharmacy to dispense their medication, some of them even drop by their prescription and collect it at the next day. So what's the point of hurrying within that 2.5 hours?
Today I was screwed up with the prescriptions given. I used about 45 mins to do the first question, and I started to get panic after that. The prescriptions were just way too tricky, I was confused most of the time. It wasn't that bad during the previous exercises and the mock test but when came to the test this morning, they came out with all hell lot of tricky questions to fail their students. I did lot of careless mistakes due to lack of time, for instant forgot to give child-resistance cap, forgot about the syringe, labeling mistake etc. Arghhh mood swing right after the exam, mood-less for the rest of the day.
Just few minute ago, my friend asked, have you checked on your PADC test mark? I was like; gosh why are they releasing the result so soon? I still want to enjoy my life. As expected, I failed, don't worry I am not that SAD at least for now, Cardiff Uni had trained me to get used to all the re-sit thingy. They failed most of the students in every test. For this PADC, only 32 students passed out of 110 students, not big deal for not passing this :p There is a feedback session tomorrow to check on what mistake had we made then I think I can do better in the coming re-sit. Wish me luck.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
I have a friend, she is really a bitch. I hate her to the max now, but still I pretend to be friendly in front of her (I just don't know how to say I hate you in front of her, and stop talking to me). She borrowed my Instrumental Analysis's note before the Autumn exam, and I have asked her for my note before our winter break in December last year, but she replied I couldn't find your note after a few attempts to ask for my note back. I have to sit for my exam on the 19th Jan 2007, and what the hell of saying you couldn't find it before the exam? How am I going to do my revision then? So no choice, I have to print another copy out from blackboard (with the original handout, i wrote down all the missing important points that the lecturer gave in the class but with this printed copy, of course I lost lot of points). I started to curse her everyday since the day she told me she lost my handout.
Now, exam is over, result has released, I failed by Uni's mistake but I passed at last, and I am slowly forgetting this incident, then this happen ....
On the 5th of Mac 2007, last monday, she came to me and said; sorry Lay Ming, I am really sorry, I found your note. I was speechless at that moment but just smiled and say OK, then grabbed the handout and throw into my bag without giving it a glance. I wish I could yell FUCK YOU right in front of her and maybe give her a slap on the face.
What the point of returning me my note 2 months after the exam? I don't need it anymore, she can just throw it away and pretend that she never found it. Maybe I will feel better then. Before exam, she told me that she had checked through all her folder and couldn't find it at all, I was wondering how can she lost my note while she has her own note at that time. She borrowed mine to copy some of my-own-add-in notes, and she lost it after a few weeks. But after a few months she found it, does this means that she never find it at the first time when I asked for the note back, or she found it but just doesn't want to give it back to me? and after I told her that I failed my paper and she started to feel bad of herself and wanted to return my note to me because she thought I will need it to prepare for my re-sit? Anyway, thanks for being so considerate.
Until today she still likes to borrow my notes, she missed some of the lectures and the next day came to me to borrow my note. Get lost laa you, you thought I am going to borrow you my note again? and risk myself with the missing note again? I am definitely not that stupid ok? Even if you ensure me that you won't bring them back to your house but just copy them during the lectures, I will still not dare to take the risk. Please don't ask any notes from me ok? I am really getting frustrated of you asking notes from me every single day when we met in the lecture hall. I have shown it very clearly that I don't want to borrow but why you still so stupid till don't understand the sign.
I really don't understand why there is such a person on this earth? I have to tell lie every single weekday when we met in the lecture hall by saying that I didn't bring my notes with me even if I did bring them with me. But this girl still ask for it for almost 1 month already. There is so many people in the class but I really have no idea why she wants my notes so much.
I feel so GE-RAM..!!!!!
Now, exam is over, result has released, I failed by Uni's mistake but I passed at last, and I am slowly forgetting this incident, then this happen ....
On the 5th of Mac 2007, last monday, she came to me and said; sorry Lay Ming, I am really sorry, I found your note. I was speechless at that moment but just smiled and say OK, then grabbed the handout and throw into my bag without giving it a glance. I wish I could yell FUCK YOU right in front of her and maybe give her a slap on the face.
What the point of returning me my note 2 months after the exam? I don't need it anymore, she can just throw it away and pretend that she never found it. Maybe I will feel better then. Before exam, she told me that she had checked through all her folder and couldn't find it at all, I was wondering how can she lost my note while she has her own note at that time. She borrowed mine to copy some of my-own-add-in notes, and she lost it after a few weeks. But after a few months she found it, does this means that she never find it at the first time when I asked for the note back, or she found it but just doesn't want to give it back to me? and after I told her that I failed my paper and she started to feel bad of herself and wanted to return my note to me because she thought I will need it to prepare for my re-sit? Anyway, thanks for being so considerate.
Until today she still likes to borrow my notes, she missed some of the lectures and the next day came to me to borrow my note. Get lost laa you, you thought I am going to borrow you my note again? and risk myself with the missing note again? I am definitely not that stupid ok? Even if you ensure me that you won't bring them back to your house but just copy them during the lectures, I will still not dare to take the risk. Please don't ask any notes from me ok? I am really getting frustrated of you asking notes from me every single day when we met in the lecture hall. I have shown it very clearly that I don't want to borrow but why you still so stupid till don't understand the sign.
I really don't understand why there is such a person on this earth? I have to tell lie every single weekday when we met in the lecture hall by saying that I didn't bring my notes with me even if I did bring them with me. But this girl still ask for it for almost 1 month already. There is so many people in the class but I really have no idea why she wants my notes so much.
I feel so GE-RAM..!!!!!
Have been very tired this few days and this tiring life will continue at least until the end of this month. I have a total of 5 tests in this month (March) provided I pass all the test smoothly, or else I will be having a few more re-sit within this month as well, finger-cross.!
Good news is I've pass my 1st test in the month, law-test. passing mark is 50% and I got 52.5%, suppose to feel ashame for myself but I don't care, I just hope for a pass, and I feel very proud of myself for passing this test actually, haha. It was a negative-marking system again, and guess what, there is 110 students in my course, and 70 students failed. I won't say that I am smart, but I am just lucky, so thanks for those who wishes me good luck before my test.
Follow up with a bad news I received last Tuesday, my application toward Boots Summer Placement is unsuccessful. Don't know what is the reason for that but this year non of my Malaysian friends get the placement. So now I have to re-plan my summer holiday journey. I will be going back to Malaysia in early June, right after my exam I guess, hopefully my exam finishing earlier and I can travel to the Europe first before I go back to Malaysia. (Exam timetable will only be released at beginning of April) I wanted to come back to the UK earlier to get a job and earn more Pounds, but for now I still not sure whether when am I coming back to the UK yet. But I don't think I will stay in KB for 4 months, doing nothing at home everyday.
This coming Monday I am having my PADC (dispensing) test, passing mark 70%, hopefully I don't do any serious mistake which will kill my patient (e.g. dispensed under/over dose drug, dispensed wrong drug etc) and all this major mistake will contribute to a FAIL.! *stress*
Then coming up with formulation science non-sterile practical test, this is the most headache subject I ever have. I left less than 1 week to the test but still have no idea what's going on in this practical and don't know how am I going to sit for the test. So I have been to the library today to force myself to study, yet I still don't know anything (I can't really relate what I've studied to what I am formulating in the practical). As usual, just hope for pass.!
Good Luck to everyone. I am really tired now.
Good news is I've pass my 1st test in the month, law-test. passing mark is 50% and I got 52.5%, suppose to feel ashame for myself but I don't care, I just hope for a pass, and I feel very proud of myself for passing this test actually, haha. It was a negative-marking system again, and guess what, there is 110 students in my course, and 70 students failed. I won't say that I am smart, but I am just lucky, so thanks for those who wishes me good luck before my test.
Follow up with a bad news I received last Tuesday, my application toward Boots Summer Placement is unsuccessful. Don't know what is the reason for that but this year non of my Malaysian friends get the placement. So now I have to re-plan my summer holiday journey. I will be going back to Malaysia in early June, right after my exam I guess, hopefully my exam finishing earlier and I can travel to the Europe first before I go back to Malaysia. (Exam timetable will only be released at beginning of April) I wanted to come back to the UK earlier to get a job and earn more Pounds, but for now I still not sure whether when am I coming back to the UK yet. But I don't think I will stay in KB for 4 months, doing nothing at home everyday.
This coming Monday I am having my PADC (dispensing) test, passing mark 70%, hopefully I don't do any serious mistake which will kill my patient (e.g. dispensed under/over dose drug, dispensed wrong drug etc) and all this major mistake will contribute to a FAIL.! *stress*
Then coming up with formulation science non-sterile practical test, this is the most headache subject I ever have. I left less than 1 week to the test but still have no idea what's going on in this practical and don't know how am I going to sit for the test. So I have been to the library today to force myself to study, yet I still don't know anything (I can't really relate what I've studied to what I am formulating in the practical). As usual, just hope for pass.!
Good Luck to everyone. I am really tired now.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Happy Chap Goh Meh..!
Well, this is again another normal weekend to me. No any special celebration but just a simple normal day. Woke up at almost 2pm, then lunch time then lazy and hardly pick up my notes to revise. At the end, I ended up here blogging. What a lazy girl I am.!
Ok, need get back to my studies now.
Well, this is again another normal weekend to me. No any special celebration but just a simple normal day. Woke up at almost 2pm, then lunch time then lazy and hardly pick up my notes to revise. At the end, I ended up here blogging. What a lazy girl I am.!
Ok, need get back to my studies now.
Last Thursday, I've finally received my long-awaiting home-made cookies from Malaysia. It is supposed to be CNY cookies but due to some reason, mom post it after CNY. Since here doesn't have any CNY celebration so I don't mind receiving it a bit late. The most important thing is all those cookies is made by my lovely mom. It is so delicious. Thanks mom. Of cause not forgetting to thanks my sister for the blouse she bought me as a CNY surprise gift.
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Last Monday (26th Feb) was a nightmare to me. Autumn exam result released.! I don't know about it until when liet mentioned about her result, then I simply clicked on to Blackboard to checked mine. I am sure you know what is the feeling of waiting for the result page to be loaded completely. Heart beat so fast like it going to jump out from the chest. 10 seconds waiting is like 10 minutes long, and here goes my result: 1 passed but 1 failed.! WTH, I failed the most easiest paper which I was so confidence on to it. I started to panic. Don't know what should I do, and thinking of how am I going to tell my parents about my results, and started to imagine how will they react when they know I failed in my exam. My brain fulled of question marks and scare and worry. I can't hardly concentrate on my law test preparation which is held the next morning. I keep on recalling what was the questions and how well did I do actually.
The next thing I do after my test the next day was rushed into student office to ask for re-mark. But the tutor said I have to trace back with my personal tutor or module leader. So I quickly email my personal tutor to make an appointment to meet up for discussion about my result. Met him the next day which is Wednesday after lectures and he told me that he had spoken to the module leader, and the module leader said the marks I got is a CLEAR FAIL. I can't do anything to it other than re-sit (I got 33% in the exam but if I got 35% or above then can use coursework mark as compensation). I felt like bursting into tears when I heard that. He then said Dr Heard (module leader) couldn't find my exam paper by that time and said I can email him to ask him at least what is the mistake I have done which contributes to the marks I've got.
I got the module leader's reply asking me to call in ASAP. When I met him after my lab session on Thursday, he apologized to me and said that they have made a mistake on my exam paper and I actually passed my exam. WHAT THE FUCK??? I've been worry for almost a week and then you tell me there was a mistake on my paper and I actually didn't fail that paper. I got 66% actually and he gave me only 33%, difference by half. I felt like killing him but at the same time I feel relieved. The main thing is how can the lecturer never double check the results before they handed in to the Exam Board Office. Arghhhhhh.....!!!
Anyway, I have exempted from re-sitting during August re-sit period which is a good news for now. Have to work harder for the spring exam as I will be having 5 exams by mid May, and there is only 2 more months left. Good Luck to everyone including myself.
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Last Monday (26th Feb) was a nightmare to me. Autumn exam result released.! I don't know about it until when liet mentioned about her result, then I simply clicked on to Blackboard to checked mine. I am sure you know what is the feeling of waiting for the result page to be loaded completely. Heart beat so fast like it going to jump out from the chest. 10 seconds waiting is like 10 minutes long, and here goes my result: 1 passed but 1 failed.! WTH, I failed the most easiest paper which I was so confidence on to it. I started to panic. Don't know what should I do, and thinking of how am I going to tell my parents about my results, and started to imagine how will they react when they know I failed in my exam. My brain fulled of question marks and scare and worry. I can't hardly concentrate on my law test preparation which is held the next morning. I keep on recalling what was the questions and how well did I do actually.
The next thing I do after my test the next day was rushed into student office to ask for re-mark. But the tutor said I have to trace back with my personal tutor or module leader. So I quickly email my personal tutor to make an appointment to meet up for discussion about my result. Met him the next day which is Wednesday after lectures and he told me that he had spoken to the module leader, and the module leader said the marks I got is a CLEAR FAIL. I can't do anything to it other than re-sit (I got 33% in the exam but if I got 35% or above then can use coursework mark as compensation). I felt like bursting into tears when I heard that. He then said Dr Heard (module leader) couldn't find my exam paper by that time and said I can email him to ask him at least what is the mistake I have done which contributes to the marks I've got.
I got the module leader's reply asking me to call in ASAP. When I met him after my lab session on Thursday, he apologized to me and said that they have made a mistake on my exam paper and I actually passed my exam. WHAT THE FUCK??? I've been worry for almost a week and then you tell me there was a mistake on my paper and I actually didn't fail that paper. I got 66% actually and he gave me only 33%, difference by half. I felt like killing him but at the same time I feel relieved. The main thing is how can the lecturer never double check the results before they handed in to the Exam Board Office. Arghhhhhh.....!!!
Anyway, I have exempted from re-sitting during August re-sit period which is a good news for now. Have to work harder for the spring exam as I will be having 5 exams by mid May, and there is only 2 more months left. Good Luck to everyone including myself.